Wednesday, 9 May 2012

Chapter 1 - Ripples of sunlight

Chapter 1 - Ripples of sunlight

Khushi shot up awake. She had slept restlessly again, in fact she couldn't remember the last time she'd had a good nights sleep. The clock had just struck 5.30am, there was no point in attempting to sleep for another hour. She knew sleep wouldn't come to her that quickly. It would probably take her another hour to actually get to sleep. 

She slowly stepped out of bed, looked at the little ripples of sunshine penetrating their way through the small opening in her curtains and it made her feel a little happy inside. Sunshine had always filled her with joy and although now it didn't have such a large impact on her it still improved her mood; even if it was just for a brief moment. 


Khushi slowly walked through Union Square, taking her time to look at the shop windows and doors clearly. Aberdeen was a dull city, it was expensive to live in and she knew no one there. She had first traveled to Aberdeen with Lavanya, on one of Lavanyas business meetings. It had been a sunny day and she had fell in love with the place immediately. It looked more like a village than a city and miles away from the noise of London she felt safe. After what had happened she had wanted to hide in the remotest corner of Earth where she would be able to create a haven for herself. The moment she had first set foot in the city she knew that it would be the place.

Having lived there for more than a year now she knew Aberdeen inside out. All of its little nooks and crannies. And even more than she had imagined, more than she had wanted - it reminded her of the one person she constantly desired to forget. The constantly changing weather, it's many different shades and the city's inability to change to anyones needs forever reminded her of Arnav Singh Raizada. Reinforcing over and over again that he would never be just a distant memory.

She desperately needed a new job. The old one just wasn't working. Khushi didn't want to continue doing odd jobs for the rest of her life. She wanted to continue the education that she had been forced to abandon half way and her current job just would not allow that. "It's just my luck" she muttered to herself desperation and disappointment clearly clouding her face. Usually there was an abundance of jobs and now that she wanted one - there weren't any. Typical. She continued to make her way through the shopping center not giving up. Khushi Kumari Gupta never gave up and she wasn't prepared to start. 


Three hours of job hunting and three job applications later Khushi was exhausted. All that walking and she had only managed to find three places with vacancies. "Oh well, better than nothing" she reassured herself and stepped into Starbucks. After all of that she deserved a treat. She took her steaming mug of coffee and sat at a table in one of the furthest corners of the cafe. Loneliness is felt the most in the midst of a crowd. Couples sitting together, sipping on their beverages and the hush of their innocent conversations evoked the greatest amount of sadness in her. Like every other girl she had had dreams of a colourful future filled with such meetings, of hushed conversations with the love of her life, long walks together under a shimmering moonlight. But it was never to be. Her eyes glazed over and her face twisted to one of pain hidden deep within as she gulped down the steaming hot liquid attempting with all her might to chase the thoughts out of her mind. 

She slowly began to look up as she felt her pulse quicken.


Arnav stepped into the warm comfort of the cafe. His face expressionless. He closed his eyes for a brief second and cursed inwardly at his stupid brother Aakash for once again sending him to this godforsaken city. Oil? He owned hotels, why would he want to expand into the oil industry? But his brother was adamant and he didn't have the heart to refuse again. 

He felt a sudden increase in his heart beat. He slowly opened his eyes. He was confused; this hadn't happened in a very long time. He knew only one person whose presence made him feel this way...

"Arnavji why is it that every time I come close to you my heart beats faster?"

She felt a bolt of lightning strike her heart as she saw the familiar definitions of a face she had tried on so many occasions to forget, gradually turn towards her. 

"When you are near me along with your heart beat my heart also beats faster. Our heart beats become one."

His eyes widened as there eyes met and held. He felt as if he had lost sensation in each and every limb of his body. He couldn't believe his eyes and yet she was sitting down right in front of him. Like an angel who had descended from the heavens. His limbs moved of their own accord as he felt himself loosing all sense of self control. 

She stared in shock unable to move a single muscle in her body as she witnessed him take slow deliberate steps towards her. 

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

All those past memories playing over and over in their minds. The pain searing through her whole body. She felt like a fire had ignited inside her and would burn her from the inside out. Deep down inside she had wished this would happen, that she would see him again one day. But then she had given up on that thought a while back and she had now moved on. Why now?

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

She wanted to run. Run away from this pain. Run away from the person who was now seconds away from reaching her. Khushi wanted to run away and hide. When she arrived in Aberdeen she had been broken, unable to look at anything with hope. That past kept on replaying over and over in her mind.

And who do you think you are
Running round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

She felt those dark, cold eyes upon her which she remembered now as only being incapable of love, poring into her soul. Her body shuddered with the memory of the last time she'd seen him and the coldness that had emanated from his soul.

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

And before she knew it he was right in front of her. His face a mask of emotions. But she didn't have the strength to face him, she didn't have the strength to relive it. She pushed him out of the way and stumbled out of the cafe. This could not be happening to her. This was not supposed to happen....

Lyrics credit: Jar of Hearts by Christina Perri 

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